Someone 😋

I think it’s better to have someone. Even if it hurts. Even if it’s the most painful thing you have to do. Even if it’s the most painful thing you’ve ever had to do. I think it’s better to have someone.

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White Light ✨

At the end of the day. It’s the white light you have to imagine. Everything is screwed up, but this clichéd typically clichéd, white light is same. Just close your eyes and imagine this light. It’s not about darkness or sadness or happiness or wonders. It’s just about positivity. The hope, hope that things will be better. Faith, faith that whatever happened has a reason behind it. And trust, trust and faith are parellel. They co-exist with each other. They work together, like directly proportional things. So yes. It’s the positivity. Just that. Too stay positive. To see good in everything. Life sucks. People lie. People are worst, not even deserving to be called as humans, literally we have polluted that term. Yet there is always a good. Just look for that good. And these things do work. If you believe, they will. Like I said faith and trust. But not on people, but your ownself, and the fact that everything that happens have it’s own reasons. People are fake and they remain fake. But, your own positivity will make you strong and work it out. Just you.

Good Humans ? 

What is good human being ? Is there any fixed defination for this? No. I don’t believe in that. No one is good. Human beings are now mean and practical only. And everyone is fake. But you remain true to that one person you call as ‘my person’. Someone ever wise, according to me, told me once that if you want to understand someone consider them as ‘HUMANS’ mere simple Humans. Not something I was’nt aware of. I knew that. But what he told me was to not to tag them with as ‘my person’ ‘bestfriend’ ‘close friend’ ‘friend’ ‘acquaintance’. No. Just see them as simple humans. And yes, he gave a new insight into this prevailing thought of mine. And I thank him alot for this. But I ended up disagreeing with him at a point. Because exactly we are humans we need people to bond. We bond, we get attached. And then we expect. This normal human nature. You cannot change that. Working on your ownself will also not help. I have been there. I have done this and I know how it works. And I assume everyone at a point knows this. And you do end up with that one ‘MY PERSON’ which according to you is completely yours. You love them like your now part, your ownself. And you can never stop loving them. You need that one person, you need to give tag to that one person, you know despite working on yourself for years, you end up giving this one tag. And trust me it’s worth it. And to this one person you confined in all your sins. All your problems, all your shit, all your crap. And again this is this one person you remain true to. Because you love them from core, and if you can love any such one person in your life, who ever it is friend,lover or now a stranger. You have achieved you salvation. ‘Fake’ is for everyone, no one will ever show you your true face. Not everyone can like all the human beings. People are different with different thinking, different perspective. And you cannot like them all. But you can respect them all. And accept it that,

‘I don’t like you respective view.’

or

‘I don’t like this person’

on face and yet be there to help that person out, standing with them in tough, hard times is what I feel is a hallmark of a good human being. Obviously, you cannot know that the person you dont like is in trouble,because your are certainly not a magician and s/he wont come up to you, but you can always see and observe and you can keep bonds clear by telling them, with utmost honest that, ‘I don’t like this.’ ‘And that doesn’t make you a bad human or uneligible for my friendship, but this is it.’ ‘And I can’t fake it like rest of the world. But you will always find me.’ And that is how you don’t play with people’s emotions. That is how you protect each other. Neither they get attached nor you have to pretend and live with a guilt that I am not honest. Atleast this what I believe in and this is what I am taught, value human emotions. Not play with them.

And how they end up defining bonds ? By what we did for you ? Like seriously what you did ? Everyone make sacrifices for each other. That’s how relationship works. You don’t count on your sacrifices, you do them from the bottom your heart. Because you feel the joy of giving ( the basic of any relationship) when you feel your person is happy. It’s not about how many times you have checked on the other person. It’s not about that you made sure that your person has eaten something or not, or you forcing them to eat. It’s not about being possessive and proctecting them from danger. It’s not about wheather you like there certain habits or not. No.No. That is what a bodyguard or maybe a person who provides nursing, a care taker, or something like that does. What a true person stands for is that they are always there for you. That they never let you fall apart. They are always there to hold you even in the bad times. You know, they happily accept you bad behaviour, you can tell them about it without them thinking that you are a bad person,because they know that what is inside you is purer and more beautiful. Because they have seen a side that they believe is more stronger and can never die. They stand by you to let you know that, Yes no matter what we accept each other. We all have flaws but what love,affection, care and respect demands is this. ‘I care about you’ ‘I love you’ You can say all this 25 times a day, but when you can’t accept your person, these are just words. Feeding them with food or making sure that they end up doing there work is not how you show I care. That is natural, that comes with understanding. But what care actually stands for is accepting and giving. And everytime you cannot be accurate and correct. You can be wrong too. And accepting that I am wrong, doesn’t make us weak, but strong. That yes, we know our flaw and we are working on it. And you are lucky if you find this one person, who won’t judge you. Yet you can confined in him/her all of yourself. And if you end being true to even this one person in your life, you have achieved it. Life is not always about money,career or cars,mansions or 20,000 people. Life is all about small small happy things and moments. And few bunch of people, you can call as your own. Not everyone deserves to know all of you. Only such people does.

# Doodle 20 

Life is better when we let go of the illusion of control. Let things magically fall into place on their own. If it is ment to be, it will stay. Forever

Obessing, tension,controlling and worrying are spectre. They are tricks we play on ourselves.

Two Year Old Babyy

Finally, my baby is now 2 year old. I guess I am getting hell obsessed with this baby word. But, Perfect Blemish has always been a baby to me. This page has given me an identity. An identity that I also exist as an individual. And I know that lately I am not posting anything, not updating it. And I am very irregular. And I am failing as a writer. I know I am not doing justice to my thing, my love, basically my identity. But I have been caught up by thing so much that I dont get time for myself. Last year also, I was not able to update anything on such a special day and this year also I am not able to do something. So, I am just posting this shitty stuff so that something or the other is there on the page on today’s date. 23rd February is very special date not just because Perfect Blemish was born, but because I was also born again. 😊

Online Florist

….Autumn is here. It’s that season of the cycle which is solely made for broken souls. The lovers of art. The ones lost in time. The poets,the painters,the writers.
Flowers ? She never liked flowers, actually bouquets. Why? Because you can’t keep them as memories for entire life. They will stay with you for few hours and then you have to throw them in dustbin, it’s like throwing away the love. And it’s really hard. Though flowers in gardens always appealed her. But that autumn, things were not same. She was busy with her job. Job, that was just a way to hide here lonliness. She was recluse, always kept herself hidden somewhere. It was her father’s birthday day. Yes, she wanted to meet him, to touch him, to hug him, to get a forehead kiss. But***

And that but is the bump on the road and was jolting her back for doing this.

The words spoken by him that day left wounds on her heart. Time went by, wounds healed. Worlds sees them as tattoo but they are scars, scars that cannot be recovered. Those words still haunt her.

It was her father’s birthday. She wanted him to be happy. Though she won’t be able to see but then she can bring that smile. And flowers were the key to that. That day first time in her entire life she searched for online florist. Those who deliver flowers to whom we want. She called the florist in the small town of dehradun. Online flower, she thought he won’t get it and like this she will safeguard herself. She not only ordered a single bouquet but she asked for the whole decoration of the house. That joy lasted only for a day but that was enough for her.

You know their are grudges but it’s always the time that heals everything. She could have tried atleast once to talk to her father but then she never did.

Now every year the florist delivers the flower in the town of dehradum spreading happiness but somehow it’s increasing the distance.

It’s not about the material things man can give. It’s about his time,attention,honesty,loyalty and efforts. These gifts means more than anything money could buy.

Speak up – it’s time

“Molestation: Assault or abuse (a person, specially a woman or a child) sexually.” When is a sexual act considered Molestation? When it is without consent. Was she asking for it? No she wasn’t. You think she’s slutty? Her neck line is too low? That’s her choice. She could be married to you and yet if she says no and you force her, you’re molesting her.
To be honest, for me, our cultural upbringing is my problem. Girls shouldn’t drink and girls shouldn’t smoke. Girls shouldn’t party. Girls sh\”Molestation: Assault or abuse (a person, specially a woman or a child) sexually.\” When is a sexual act considered Molestation? When it is without consent. Was she asking for it? No she wasn\’t. You think she\’s slutty? Her neck line is too low? That\’s her choice. She could be married to you and yet if she says no and you force her, you\’re molesting her.\nTo be honest, for me, our cultural upbringing is my problem. Girls shouldn\’t drink and girls shouldn\’t smoke. Girls shouldn\’t party. Girls shouldn\’t work late. Girls shouldn\’t wear short clothes. If your upbringing teaches your kids that boys are different to girls and girls aren\’t allowed to do the things boys are – then I\’m sorry but you\’re doing something wrong as a parent.\nWhy is it that when girls are out at odd hours, everyone always says \”let me drop you, it\’s unsafe\”. It\’s unsafe? Who is making it unsafe? It\’s not me…It\’s not her. It\’s someone else. Someone who is stereotype. A hypocrite. Don\’t you think it\’s about time that when,we start asking to drop HIM home instead, because it\’s unsafe? He could molest a girl. There\’s more possibility of that! If you can imagine her being raped & offer her a ride home, you bloody well should offer the men one too. Maybe that should be a fix to the problem, instead of our freedom.\nWe people talk about equality that girls and boys are equal and what not. But then why are we putting burden on female fraternity.\nThis needs to stop. Just stop. Women, all over the country, don\’t deserve this. Women don\’t deserve to be molested, abused, felt up the wrong way. You\’re offering us our lives, at the cost of our freedom. Not anymore. It\’s time we #SpeakUp.\n#westandup.\nouldn’t work late. Girls shouldn’t wear short clothes. If your upbringing teaches your kids that boys are different to girls and girls aren’t allowed to do the things boys are – then I’m sorry but you’re doing something wrong as a parent.
Why is it that when girls are out at odd hours, everyone always says “let me drop you, it’s unsafe”. It’s unsafe? Who is making it unsafe? It’s not me…It’s not her. It’s someone else. Someone who is stereotype. A hypocrite. Don’t you think it’s about time that when,we start asking to drop HIM home instead, because it’s unsafe? He could molest a girl. There’s more possibility of that! If you can imagine her being raped & offer her a ride home, you bloody well should offer the men one too. Maybe that should be a fix to the problem, instead of our freedom.
We people talk about equality that girls and boys are equal and what not. But then why are we putting burden on female fraternity.
This needs to stop. Just stop. Women, all over the country, don’t deserve this. Women don’t deserve to be molested, abused, felt up the wrong way. You’re offering us our lives, at the cost of our freedom. Not anymore. It’s time we #SpeakUp.
#westandup.

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# Doodle 19

All she wanted was to find a place to stretch her bones. A place to lengthen her smiles and spread her hair. A place where her legs could walk wothout cutting and bruising. A place unchained. She was born out of ocean breath. I reminded her;
‘Stop, pouring so much out of yourself into hearts that have no room for themselves. Do not thin yourself. Be vast. You do not bring the oceans to a river.’

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3 Day Qoute Challenge

DAY – 3
I was recently nominated by Christina from Stealing Quiet Time In Noisy Disorders for this 3-Day Quote Challenge. Thankyou for this. I was actually waiting for this only. If you’ve not yet had the pleasure of visiting her blog, please take some time to do so. You will find something new only.

The rules:
• 3 Days
• 3 Quotes each day
• 3 Nominees each day

My nominees:
Srijan

Bodhi

Shitij Sharma

The Qoutes:
• A lie doesn’t become truth, wrong doesn’t become right and evil doesn’t become good, just because it’s accepted by a majority.

• Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations.

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             3 Day Qoute Challenge, Day – 2

3 Day Qoute Challenge

DAY – 2
I was recently nominated by Christina from Stealing Quiet Time In Noisy Disorders for this 3-Day Quote Challenge. Thankyou for this. I was actually waiting for this only. If you’ve not yet had the pleasure of visiting her blog, please take some time to do so. You will find something new only.

The rules:
• 3 Days
• 3 Quotes each day
• 3 Nominees each day

My nominees:
Pratyusha

A.K.Atheauthor

In The Autumn Of My Life

The Qoutes:
In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back.

• And in the end, we were all just humans drunk on the idea that love,only love could heal our brokenness.

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         3 Day Quote Challenge, Day – 1